Monday, June 06, 2005
ish life reali tat bad aft all ?! i dunno .. seems confused abt wad's goin on in moi mind .. i seems faraway fr moi future .. all i can see ish a big ocean leadin to no where .. where am i headin off to ?! i cant predict .. moi future lies in moi hand .. can i change it ?! n manipulate .. nt sure .. fer nw i jux wiish to hab a family filled wit happiness .. happiness ish all i wanted to fill moi hartx .. deep dwn its a hole waiting to b mended .. daddy can euu plz treat miee beta ?! i simply hatee euu as euu owaz say thingys tat hurt miee .. owaz ony noes hw to care fer moi brudders .. wad abt miee ?! i'm oso ure daughter fer heaven sake .. euu dun understand miee at all .. no amt of marnee can buy bac happiness kkaes .. sme times , i jux wiish euu die earlier .. cursing euu all the way under moi breathe .. saying tat even if euu passed away , i oso wun drop a tears fer euu .. cuz euu mke miee cries umpteen times .. izzit askin euu to visit miee tOO muchie ?! tmd .. i jux hatee euu to the core .. sme times i ever wonder am i ure daughter nt ?! neber ever spare a thot fer miee .. euu adults r owaz liddat ?! seems like moi tears flows neber ending ~ whenever i weep wit a heartache it's like FOC .. forever flowing on and on ~
great grandma[mother's] .. it's oreadi 1mth 3 days tat euu've passed away .. i miss the last chance to visit euu thou euu cant recognise us due to dementia when we visited euu in old folks home years bac .. bud euu were stil beautiful at the age of 95 when euu passed on .. moi beloved grandma[father's] its 8yrs le since i was pri3 .. i miss euu lots .. evrytime daddy hurt miee , i feel like joining euu dwn derrh .. if euu haben passed away sho early due to colonol cancer , euu cud hab seen miee growin up le .. n daddy wun've the guts to treat miee badly .. cuz euu wil scold him .. grandpa[father's] ah gong i oso miss euu .. miss the days euu buy durians fer miee .. thou we ony visit ure once a year in mandai , i mke it a point to go derrh to look at the photos of ure .. i wil neber feel its troublesome to go derrh ..
i want this to last 8:22 PM
